You ever have that nagging feeling that you forgot something? Your keys…your wallet…your cond…ahem, never mind.
Nagging feelings, that’s what I was talking about. Yeah, that’s it, nagging feelings.
I’m pretty sure we’ve all felt ’em, or something like them. Shit, I know it’s a pretty regular thing for me — mostly because I usually did forget something. There was this time I was going to the airport for a flight to Japan, and I forgot my passport…
You know what sucks worse, though? That nagging feeling that you forgot something in your story. That feeling that the 68,000 words you’ve already written don’t include something important, something fundamental to a major character. And I don’t mean an idea you came up with recently that you have to go back and insert… No sir, I’m talking about a subplot that is crucial to the development of that character, a subplot that was supposed to be included from the very beginning.
I hate myself right now…especially since this whole subplot was an effort to make right some of the wrongs I did to this particular character in the first story.
I’ve mentioned before just how much I dread the editing and rewrite process, as necessary and valuable as it is. Now I’m not even going to wait until the damned story is finished!
Plot-wise, however, it is a good time to take a break. I have some planning and thinking to do about the rest of the story, and a great deal of prep-work. Oh, and some cutting…definitely some cutting. Finishing out at 135,000 (projected) words is not a particularly good idea, I think.
Maybe that’s what sets writers apart from “normal” folks: we (usually) get do-overs. We get to go back and fix our mistakes. We get to excise what doesn’t work, and to develop and emphasize what does.
If we — well, if I — could do that in our “real” lives, things would be a hell of a lot better!
The caveat I will give to the above goes back to my photography habit. In this “digital age,” there is a tendency to say “I can fix it in post.” Beginning photographers often use the ability to edit and modify images after they are taken as an excuse to “spray and pray” in order to get a few semi-decent pictures that later can be “fixed.”
That is, to be blunt, bad photography. It’s bad technique, it’s bad art, and it leads to bad development as an artist and a photographer. When I shoot pictures, I do my best to get everything right in the lens. It’s a challenge I have set for myself, and it does a great deal to make me better.*
*Sadly, I don’t generally apply to this the “snapshots” I take with my cell phone. I’m not a huge fan of using the thing as a camera, anyway, so I don’t spend a lot of time getting “everything right” with it. Although, I should add, it IS a hell of a lot better to haul around when hiking than a full size DSLR.
So, here’s my question: given that I have to go back and do some editing — fix some things in post, as it were — is that habit any better for a writer? Or is it just as bad form, just as bad technique…and just as bad for development and improvement as an artist?
Shit, I hate questions like that. They make me uncomfortable, and I don’t particularly want to be uncomfortable.
I do, on the other hand, want to be better as a writer…and the only way to get better is to set yourself a higher bar. I’m jealous of those folks who can get a story right on the first (or even the second) try. I’m jealous of them, and I pretty much hate them, but goddamit, would I love to be like them (in that regard, anyway)!